un-harshly

Naalala ko lang yung incident na nasabihan ko ang isang tao na control freak siya. Nagulat ata siya nun. Tapos nag-usap lang kami about that through text lang. Anyway, totoo naman yun, in my perspective that time. That was one of the few times I said something hard to say to someone. I'm sorry but I'm not the kind of person who will just pour out. I hate confrontations. Sabi nga ni Gary, madaya daw. But then.

But first: click me

I have always thought of myself as hindi ma-pride. But I have been proven wrong a lot of times. Perhaps, my fear of confrontation is mistaken by many as pride. But sometimes, yes, I feel proud. Proud enough not to take the first step. If I know I'm right.

This avoidance of confrontation is a social flaw. Or maybe, not, at the right moments (i.e. when you want to confront someone who has a deadly weapon). I remember one meme which makes bloggers write 20 things that they want to tell specific people but can't. A lot of people did that. Including me. That only shows how people are also afraid of telling other people things to their faces, no matter how beautiful or bad that is.

Anyway, I'm doing this.

Let me tell you, I am not sorry. You should have realized I was just playing with you. It was a joke. I do it all the time to a lot of people. I have hit a nerve more than once with that, and I know when to stop. If you think I went too far, then perhaps you should also look upon yourself. Do you always insist your ideas? Are you too assertive? Do you find yourself VERY creative that other's ideas are practically worthless? Maybe a leader can insist his/her ideas to his/her group, but it takes a lot of experience and knowledge to be credible as a leader. (But that was somewhat irrelevant.) The truth is, I acted like that in defense. Maybe I felt that you were blocking us out. So I blocked your idea out. If that hurts your pride so much you cannot recover from it then it's a problem. Trust me, you'll meet a lot of people that are bigger a-holes than what I was. Don't be too touchy. Your idea is good. But it's not the best idea ever. And other people have pride too.
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We suffered a major grill yesterday at our 136 presentation. (Let me thank the people who have contributed to this...) We have a lot of work ahead of us. Darn.
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I nearly forgot to write about the batch party. I had fun, especially because of the things we can share (like Maynard's charades acting or Pat's Dating Game answers). I have nothing to not share. As I've said, I do not welcome much clog (gossip) in my brain anymore. And Smooth E really works. To make us laugh, at least. Gamerzz rock!

And it would be the last batch party (as a student) for me. And so, click me.
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To come: The Ilocos Empanada (with pictures c/o Pat)

JOIN UP KEM

Tis Orientation Seminar blogging season again. But this time, without much hatred, I would like to invite all ChE students to join KEM. I will not give much here but this pic:


Please do. For your own sake.

KEM Orientation
Dec 6
Eng'g Theater, 5:30 PM
FREE FOOD!
**This does not mean that you are an applicant upon attending the seminar. Just see what/how KEM is.**

day off

This is a photoshopped (not the skin or anything) photo of me and Pat. Wala lang. I just want to post a pic of me (at least) that has been photoshopped. Pero parang ang kinis nga namin. But no healing brush.

I have been sick for the past two days. Nothing too serious. Just the colds, and a bit of throat irritation. I just missed class (what class?) today. But I think it was worth it since I got to rest.


Engg Week na. I hope we have a very marvelous Awitan. With your help. *winkwink*

alone time

I had some alone time yesterday (and today, since I'm at home). I went to Glorietta to check out the post-bombing atmosphere. It was more or less okay. Sales are a bit slow, but prices went down (there's an all-month sale). I refused to buy a regular Zagu because I was seven pesos short but I soon bought a Taro Ice which costs 18 pesos more than the 27 pesos I had for food for that malling session. I really didn't have a lot of money to spend, but I go to malls to see what's new, look at people and basically, walk and think and sort things out. In conclusion, I had a fun lonely time yesterday. Lucky was supposed to come with me, but Globe messed up and sent our messages 2 hours later. But I'm not going to change networks.

Leadership update: I'm head of a ChE week event. *dies*

leadership

But first...
This is a picture of me as a kid. I'm cute, aren't I?
(Shameless! Shameless!)


For more kiddie pics, please view 'childhood pics' album. Which can be accessed by clicking this.




And so, I have been elected the group leader of our 190 group. That's very ok with me because 190 is an easy class, and I would love to be of service to my groupmates. However, this also means additional leader work (aside from those mentioned earlier).

Classes have started, and no heavy work was due anytime soon. Oh, right, 142 and 136. Yeah. Ma'am decided we should work hard this sem.

I have noticed the two leadership methods that I use. The first one is the democratic style. It is the one I use at school, where I have team members older than me (or younger by a year or two). I ask for a lot of suggestions and comments and I always consult them if there is a major decision. The other style is the strict, autocratic style that I use at home. No questions asked. I get angry boundlessly. I order my younger sibs to do something (chores, go to sleep, etc.) and they bow to me. But then, I consider their feelings. But I guess, not ask.

Perhaps, there is a need-to-know-you-better thing with those people at school, so I need to know their positions on the things that we need to decide on. At home, I know my sibs and I know how they'll react to my decrees and orders. I know I wield a lot of power at home, being second oldest (practically the oldest commanding child, kuya isn't around so much) and all, but I do not abuse that power. Except when I want to watch TV. Then I make them clean their room or sleep in the afternoons.

I have learned a lot from the PIChE LTS but so far, I think I have used little. But I now listen. I just need more teeth for my school groups. I wish I could channel the guts I have at home ( I am ruthless!) to my other groups. That way I can be more effective. Perhaps.

injustice

This is not exactly a very big thing compared to the rich-poor social injustice we have today. Compared to that, this is really not a big deal. So, I was sitting in the 3-person seat in the bus yesterday, on the way home from school. There was this fat woman and rude man who sat with me on this seat. Actually, nauna ako sa upuang 'yon. I just have to have the space nearest the aisle because Doodz and her mom was seating on the other side of the aisle, on the two-person seat. Of course, I have to be seating close to them as I am with them. So, when these two people came to sit on the seat I already occupied, I move to let them pass. I was very polite in doing this. I did not roll my eyes, or smirk. The fat lady got there first. We were okay. Two butt cheeks and legs were still upon the seat. Then tragedy struck when the rude man came. He stopped in front of the seat, looked at me as though he wanted me to move and made a face. I did not mind that so much and moved to 'I-let-you-pass' position. He passed with ease and sat down.

HE DISPLACED ME almost completely. I was left with 1.5 butt cheeks and half a leg upon the seat. I was 75% less uncomfortable. And HE DID NOT SEEM TO MIND. More polite people would say something, or would make you feel s/he's sorry for doing that. Of course, I had no control of the situation since I am on the outermost end of the seat and I cannot squeeze them inside.

During the trip, I had to grab the opposite seat so I won't fall when the bus suddenly turns. I was uncomfortable, and I wished that there won't be any heavy traffic so we can get to Alabang fast. And, I did not complain because that's me. I'm passive. Mr. Rude Man will get what he deserves. We all do.

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I have been unjustly elected as Group Leader of my 142/136 group. I wasn't passive this time, but what could I do really? [Ei, groupmates, 'tis okay. I just want a whine out of this.]
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And why does it take TWO LONG WEEKS to process a TCG (true copy of grades) at the College of Engineering while it takes only minutes in the College of Science (they say)? Like it takes a whole hour to validate/check/assess form 5s in the ChE department.
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I am on temporary, unofficial ban (by parents) from alcoholic beverages because of rumored allergy. My chest tightens. Poor me. Will have to eat chocolate instead. Haha. Also told by Papa to jog/walk to improve cardio-vascular health. We'll see.

enrollment week

But before that, I would like to share a random moment.

This is a picture of Yacel and Mina preparing lunch (pouring Pepsi on a pitcher with ice). This was in Pagudpud, where apparently, there are no real lunch places. We had the tiniest serving of pancit canton (instant) and a gulp of Pepsi. It was very much enjoyed, though. And we get to bond with the other delegates (of the LTS) who suffered with us.



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Back to the enrollment week. So, actually almost finished enrolling last Monday due to the well-used Graduating powers. Got 13 units this sem, and although I envy other people who have Language electives, I chose to have less this sem. Concentrate on 136/142 perhaps. Or get a job. SA-ing, maybe. Or just spend more time at home or elsewhere, like the mall.

Enjoyed (really) ChESI work on registration on Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Friday. Ma'am Rollon told me we were having our first meeting last Friday. But she did not come to class. Only had CE 22 last Friday. I know only one person, which is connected to an entire barkada already. So, new friends. Might do a Mina and do group project individually. Might be easier though because said group project is a feasibility study, which is one of the requirements in 142 AND 126. I can hit two birds with one stone.

Had lunch with instructor Lucky last Friday at LB. Thanks for the Banana Shake, and the company. He's now teaching Math 17 to a couple of students. Will sit-in one of these days. Get a laugh. Perhaps re-learn Algebra.

Oh. And I now have a Saturday class. 126 lasted for only 30 minutes. I had to go to UP for that. The trip to UP lasted 2 hours. Yeah. Ma'am Ang is cool, although it is quite weird for an instructor not to know much of her students in a major subject class. But she just returned from someplace so that's why. Janine, Dale and me are grouping again for our written report. We have to find another person. Perhaps Jasser, but he's already taken*.
*His group is too big and they have to eliminate someone. We can take him if he likes.

Jabells, Jasser, Janine, Benjo and I also did a "Papaya" video shoot in Engg, a waiting shed and Lagoon. It was fun, but a bit tiring.

No sem-starter activity yet. Maybe movies on Wednesday, but that won't do it. I have to party.

The LTS/Ilocos Tour Post

Mahirap talaga magsulat kapag overwhelmed ka with emotions, which is why I have this blogpost in Taglish, as it comes out. As in wala nang translation, basta kung ano lumabas, yun na. Pero hindi pala, siyempre filtered out yung masyadong personal, or hindi dapat sinasabi sa blog.

Anyway, nagsimula ang lahat nung umalis kami ng Ilocos. Wala lang, naisip ko lang na aalis na kami and there is a big possibility na hindi na kami magkikita-kita (yung other school friends). Tapos nagwander ang isip ko sa graduation, etc. Well, ganun talaga ako mag-isip, parang sa charades, one thought leads to another hanggang sobrang layo na. In this case, na-aggravate lang yung kalungkutan ko kasi naisip ko na nga yung mga hiwalayan (physical, etc.) na mangyayari after 6 months. Ayun, parang ang dami kung issues sa pag-graduate no? Ayaw ko pa talaga. I mean, I want to earn money, and lose the academic responsibilities, pero ang sarap kasi ng feeling sa school. Napaka-devoid of all adult worries. Pwede kayang magbreak muna ako ng 2 years? As in floating schoolkid lang? Para kasing napakmature na ng pagtatrabaho, and I honestly don't think I have the maturity to be a part of the working force. Not entirely my fault. Pero itong 'I don't wanna graduate yet' stuff ay part lang. Basta ayun, ganun.

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Napakasaya ng LTS. And Ilocos Tour. Gusto ko lang muna magpasalamat sa mga taga-MMSU (na ChE) sa pag-accomodate sa amin sa Ilocos. Sobrang na-feel ko naman na pinaghandaan at pinaghirapan nila ng LTS. Sa mga ChE students from other universities, salamat dahil hindi magiging uniquely fun ang experience na ito kung wala kayo. Sa teammates ko, Team Bagnet, [Turururut, BAGNET!] grabe, sobrang saya ko at kayo ang groupmates ko dahil, kahit hindi tayo ganun kagaling sa Charades (minsan kasi yung ibang teams, mental telepathy), super nag-enjoy naman tayo (hehe, Ethics, Analytical Chemistry). Tsaka pala yung Amazing Race. Special mention kay Jay at Dean, sobrang galing makiusap sa locals para maka-hitch. Salamat din pala kay Atty. Kris Ablan, mainly for the empanada (haha, ang PG), which actually represents his hospitality (may ganun). Nag-enjoy naman ako sa Ilocos, sobrang ganda! At kay Mr. Ryan Mercado na rin. Marami akong natutunan sa seminar/activities. Huli, salamat sa officers ng PIChE dahil sobrang nakita ko na nahaggard kayo sa LTS para lang ma-enjoy ng mga tao yung event, at para na rin marami kaming matutunan. Salamat, salamat sa lahat.

Sobrang ganda ng Ilocos. Wala lang. At least totoo ngang dapat puntahan lahat ng lugar sa Pilipinas dahil maganda naman talaga. Medyo larger than life yung windfarm sa Bangui at yung view from the lighthouse sa Burgos.

Places in Ilocos Norte we visited:
1. MMSU (Batac) - Parang UP. Mainly because napagod ako sa paglalakad from Track Oval to COE. Kabikabila ang mga palayan, na malamang ay pinag-aaralan ng agriculture students. I <3 MMSU.

2. Batac Church - Dito kami nagsimba nung Sunday. Weird yung Ilocano songs kasi siyempre hindi naman ako maruning ng Ilocano. It provided insight on the Ilocano language. Parang ang haba nung words nila. Pero I've learned to respect the Filipino languages naman from Lingg 1.

3. Laoag Market- Shopping sa palengke. Parang Alabang market lang, pero maraming other things like the very big pamaypay and sukang Iloko and Basi (tama ba ito?). Sobrang tumawad kami sa mga Ate (Manang) Chichacorn at ayaw na nila ibaba yung price, pero ganun na daw pala yung price ng Chichacorn. Sorry mga Ate. [Tapos nag-muMultiply din pala si Ate.]

4. Museo Ilocos Norte (Laoag) - Basically, pinakita lang nito ang buhay ng mga Ilocano. Medyo pang-foreigner siya (like one foreigner who commented in the guest book that she was offended by one woman's remark about her and the Ilocos heat and losing weight). Please view pictures from this place where Janine and I roleplayed with the exhibits.

5. Laoag in general - Yung church nila ay may sinking bell tower. Kita yung doorway na half-submerged na. Ang ganda rin ng kapitolyo. Maraming mga kalesa. May compound where they sell empanadas. Nakita namin si Kris Ablan dito, accidentally. Nilibre niya kami ng empanada. Kakaiba pala yung empanada dito. Orange, crispy and eaten with ketchup. Yummy. See pics.

6. Paoay Church - UNESCO Heritage Site pala ito. Sobrang luma na ng church na ito. As in 1500s ata ito tinayo. Maganda, seashells yung ginamit nila sa walls.

7. Paoay Lake and Vigan House - Yung Vigan House ay actually ang Malacanang of the North. Ito daw ay tinutuluyan nina Marcos sa Ilocos nung presidente pa siya. Ang ganda ng view overlooking the lake. Ang weird ng feeling na nandun ka mismo sa bahay kung saan nangyari ang important historical events, gaya ng pag-babath tub ni Imelda. Hehe.

8. Pagudpud (say it with an American accent: paGOODpud)- The beaches here are phenomenal. As in better than Zambales. Calm yung waves, clear yung tubig at yung alat niya ay alat lang, walang clay/lupa taste. Ang ganda pa ng view. Souvenir shopping. Best lunch EVER. With and without sarcasm.

9. Windfarm (Bangui) - Parang kami ni Janine yung pinaka-excited dito dahil sa EgyE. At least kami nakita na namin siya. Dito kasi dapat yung field trip. Pero ang layo kaya. Pero dun lang kami sa viewdeck due to time constraints. May video ata si Janine nito.

10. Lighthouse (Burgos) - This is somewhat historical, pero hindi ko na maisip ngayon kung bakit. Basta kasi 5 mins lang kami dun. Dun sa pinakamataas na pwede puntahan ng tao (sa base ng tower), sobrang ganda ng view. As in yung dagat, infinitely spreading 120 degrees siguro in front of you. Tapos green landscape. Breathtaking.

Yung mga landscapes - Ang ganda lang talaga. Yung mga bulubundukin ay 'broccoli'-looking pa rin. Meaning marami pang puno. Tapos marami pang sun-related pics. Please see album, mine or one of the participants.

Oo nga pala, nag pic-taking din pala kami ni Pat and Tricia sa train sa Luisita, Tarlac. Will try to get those from Tricia.

And again, the link to the pictures: clickme

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Last emo: Mahirap pala talaga ang relationships no? Napakacomplicated. Design of humidification equipment is way easy.