lashing out?

i'd prefer not. it's good to appear as okay as possible.

things to do:

• 140 paper - done
• 123 take home - done
• 197 exam - done
• bio 1 exam - done
• check on STD pub - done
• be around for help
• clean tambayan, jan 30 - done
• take the slack
• i2k7 boothing
• 140 powerpoint
• che week presentation
• eoea video
• sell brownies

good thing there's Heroes to cheer me up, and divert my attention from "self-suicide". but i had to keep my hands away from someone. i might strangle him/her or something...like Jessica (Niki's alter ego, Heroes) would do. but then, i'm joking.

so, more about Heroes. Mohinder (Sendhil Ramamurthy) has been named #10 worthless TV character. See who's in the top 10.
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had a lot of fun during pat's birthday week, including neglecting academic duties for Mall of Asia escapades (free pizza!). [but she did not make me neglect acads. it was another situation, i.e. my fault.] also, free pizza from pat also, that day, lunch. and some more free pizza from pat on the 27th, when we went to greenbelt/glorietta. so, Happy Birthday PAT! you are officially an adult. (or not.)
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LOU, good luck to your Comedy Royale gig. may you win and make other people's lives better through laughter, like what you do to me. :D
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election time again, but i'm not really too concerned because i decided to pursue other things ('aayusin ang lovelife' ba?) that i really wanted to do. coughinhinyerocough. of course, i still have a lot of duties, and will have another at the miting de avance (to help make the choice clear for others, hopefully in a non-biased way, you know, what's good for the org... hey! these are just the questions that any member of the EC should be able to answer at this point! no agenda whatsoever.). to all, candidates, good luck and may you be the right ones.
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update summary: still whiny, heavy and lazy. but did 2/3 of 123 exam without any help. a bit positive on life again, but suffers from bits of frustration.

i'm just hoping. i do not like to explode and destroy a lot of what we had built for the last year. whoa. maturity? (but they say, maturity is overrated nowadays.) what the hell? i'll just go and burst into flames. that would do the trick.

a thursday post

i just can't resist posting today. just some random thoughts.

a week ago, i rode this jeep with this v. rude/profit-oriented jeepney driver. i was supposed to get off at asian center but he dropped me off 100 meters further at the ilang ilang residence hall. as always, i cursed the manong driver in my head and swore that i never would ride his jeep again. when i thought of it, a lot of public transportation personnel are not really that um, dedicated to their work of service to the people. actually, a lot of public service people hate serving, and it shows. remember the Luli Arroyo incident? an eye-opener on the ape-like patience of our public servants (not the elected ones, of course; they have a different defect). there are tricycle drivers who drive near the speed of sound, mock their passengers, use a lot of cuss words and overprice. a lot of jeep and bus drivers drive too fast, or too slow, get angry when there is an emergency getting-off situation, but have no shame in stopping every 10 meters just to get passengers, and of course the record-holder jeep and bus stuffing. i experience countless times of pain while riding a stuffed jeepney. they always say, "o, tatlo pa!" when there is only one seat left. usually, i am the person who hangs on to the tinniest piece of seating almost squatting. the buses do the same deception. the conductor says, "marami pa! maluwag pa!". the truth is there are no more seats left and passengers could only ride standing up, hanging on to dear life while the driver speeds up in skyway. another profit oriented scheme is when the buses stop at the bus stops for too long. i actually spent an hour travelling just sitting in a bus waiting for passengers in ayala. in all cultures of this world, an hour not in motion, when you are supposed to be travelling is an utter rip-off. unless you are the driver/operator.

and i now go to the office personnel. i have involved myself in a few matters where i need to obtain things from the government (these include forms, permits and other papers). in most cases, i end up with the stuff i intend to get, plus a headache or an additional 50 mm Hg of blood pressure (without eating pork). these personnel are rude, insensitive and lazy. some of them would take a break from 11 am to 2 pm. 3 hours? hello, we're burning daylight here... some are simply lost and uncapable of doing their actual jobs, and you have to draw an explicit diagram just to show that you need a form that says you're actually alive. and of course, the red tape.
yung tipong pinagpapasapasahan ka lang. that really sucks.

i think that no amount of VAT or credit rating can uplift this country if its service personnel continue what they are doing. mag-artista na lang sila. parang si Gretchen Barreto. if they want to be rude or insensitive, they can. artista na sila eh.
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we had an experiment yesterday that used a big weighing scale. eventhough it may be prohibited to use this scale to measure my weight, i used it. a hundred and fifty pounds. what? i was just 140 when i last weighed, two weeks ago... (of course i thought of water retention and all that but still). so, i panicked. i computed my BMI (of course, steve told me i was overweight already), and found out that i was still safe in the normal weight range. i am worrying about my health. i can't take care of it very well. i planned to jog today (2.2 kms) but i got colds so i passed the opportunity to be healthy (for whatever amount of health i can get).
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i am known as the quiet guy who never gets angry explosively. wrong.

the adventures of errand boy

there is such a character as errand boy. he, like his title suggests, does a lot of errands for several people. he is neither a strange character like batman, nor a superperson like er, superman. he does not have powers. he just can't say no.

before we judge errand boy on his lack of gut to refuse an errand, let us first look at the circumstances affecting errand boy.

1. errand boy is an overachiever. he likes doing stuff because it gives him a high. and there is so little time.
judgement: it's his fault he has a lot of errands. it is what he thinks the best use of his life. there is too much to do, he asks for them.

2. there is always a burning need to get certain things done, and there is only a few who want to do them. some matters, not-so-urgent ones become fatally urgent when piled up.
judgement: so, does errand boy need to do them all? (or at least most of them?)

3. errand boy lets himself be bullied. well if you can't do it, find someone who would. if there's nobody who would do it in their own free will, bully someone.
judgement: poor errand boy, but he really should stand up and learn to pity his tired, tired body and soul.

so there. we shall now cast our final judgement: errand boy is a nice person, but he is utterly stupid, although he is very productive. he should focus his energy to activities that will have gain on him more, than on other people. (which isn't bad in this situation) until he sees the light, he's doomed.

seatbelt ad

i was supposed to have a post today but no... am lazy today.

so here's a seatbelt ad from hex (so i hex-ed. am really lazy).

So What's Your Excuse?

Seat Belts Are Too Umcomfortable.
Maybe. Of course, in a car crash - without your seat belt - you would smash into the steering column, slam into the dashboard, or crash through the windshield. We've heard this, too, can be very uncomfortable.

Seat Belts Wrinkle My Clothes.
Sometimes. But sitting also wrinkles clothes. Wearing clothes wrinkles clothes. Flying through a windshield, however, really wrinkles clothes.

Only Geeks Wear Seat Belts.
Really? All we know is that without seat belts - geeks, jocks, cheerleaders, "A" students, and average students would all fly through the windshield at the same rate. In fact, even being really cool won't keep you in your seat without your seat belt.

Seat Belts Restrict My Freedom Of Movement.
You're right. Without your seat belt you have all the freedom in the world - to crash into your windshield, to slam into your car's interior, or to be thrown from your car and slide along the pavement. Freedom is great.

I'll Never Have An Accident. I'm A Good Driver.
That's nice. Unfortunately, good drivers can be hit by bad drivers, drunk drivers, or by other good drivers with mechanical failures. Few people intend to have accidents.

I'd Be Too Embarrassed To Ask My Friends To Use Their Seat Belts.
In 2002 over 100 people died in car crashes in New Hampshire. That same year not one person died from embarrassment.

You're More Likely To Die In A Car Crash Than In Any Other Way.
It's true. Car crashes kill more people between the ages of one and fourty-four than anything else.
In fact, for people in their late teens and early twenties, car crashes account for more then 40% of all deaths.
Why risk it? Your best protection against death and injury in your car is your seat belt. It's easy. Just reach over - click - and you're set.
Think about it.
And while you're thinking Buckle Up!

and poor windshield.

trying

so, it has been a month since i have posted and avid fans have been screaming (in the Cbox of course) for an update. honestly, i've made a couple of posts in notepad during the vacation, thanks to a slow internet connection at home. and can i post it now? uh, maybe not because "the moment has passed" (read that somewhere, hm.) , or i just forgot to bring them with me as i type this.

i've written up a few resoultions for 2007. of course almost everyone wouldn't have resolutions, as it is already overrated, and unnecessary. so, hm, i just stated them as goals, not as resolutions. mainly because resolutions should happen in a snap, an hour of to 5 days. but mine won't. they are goals, and they require hard work. (will post them later)

this year would be big for me, because i'm turning 19, and officially an adult. or was it last year when i turned 18? hm. since then i've tried things that an 18-year old person would do: try lots of new stuff. (don't worry, they're not too extreme, and definitely not illegal) there are more stuff to try this year such as working (sana...), or dancing or not.

and while all people of the earth welcomed the new year with their age-old traditions: 12, 13, 14 or 15 round fruits, money in the pocket at 12 mn, all lights in the house lighted, jumping until their pants fall off, champagne toasts, kissing, firecrackers (or i would like to call: useless and expensive), ritual dances, lowering of a ball (in times square, not um...), etc., i tried something new. do away with all the chinese, western or other rituals and just welcome the new year with hope. nah. of course i didn't do that. i sulked due to the absence of any good tasting alcohol-based beverage within reach. sure there was whisky and brandy, but i need my liver whole for the new year. (i tasted both: pure, and i was practically drinking out of a beaker, tastes like lab alcohol, ugh.) so, to celebrate my new year, for the first time ever, at 12 mn, i went outdoors. for as long as i can remember, i spend 12 mn +/- 2 hours indoors. i hate firecrackers. the surprising loud sound it makes. and the polluting smoke that follows. anyway, thanks to my relatives who decided not to have firecrackers this year, i can go outside. and i stood there and watched the heavens. although there were no angels singing "hosanna, it's new year already in this time zone!", there were a lot of beautiful, colorful and amazing fireworks. i hate firecrackers but love fireworks because of 3 reasons:
1. fireworks don't make a lot of sound.
2. fireworks are beautiful, colorful and amazing.
3. fireworks require to be lighted up far, far away to be appreciated.

so, i spent 20 minutes outside the house, staring at the sky, with my family. that was a first. i was usually left inside. alone. a sad childhood, maybe. but i had all the food in front of me, by myself. but that's another post.

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yearender, yearstarter: i have had a lot of great experinces last year. i knew what it was to be hated, to be loved, to be hated and loved, to be loved implicitly, to be hated implicitly, to love, to hate, to love and hate, to love implicitly and to hate implicitly, to be responsible, to feel responsible, to feel responsible and hate it, to feel responsible and love it, to fail, to hate failing, to love failing, to fail to hate, to fail to love, to be contented, and most of all to sleep for a day. (because i have only slept for 12 hours max before 2006, now i have reached 18 hours.)

but really, i have learned so much and i am willing to learn more. let's just hope i live more.