trying
so, it has been a month since i have posted and avid fans have been screaming (in the Cbox of course) for an update. honestly, i've made a couple of posts in notepad during the vacation, thanks to a slow internet connection at home. and can i post it now? uh, maybe not because "the moment has passed" (read that somewhere, hm.) , or i just forgot to bring them with me as i type this.
i've written up a few resoultions for 2007. of course almost everyone wouldn't have resolutions, as it is already overrated, and unnecessary. so, hm, i just stated them as goals, not as resolutions. mainly because resolutions should happen in a snap, an hour of to 5 days. but mine won't. they are goals, and they require hard work. (will post them later)
this year would be big for me, because i'm turning 19, and officially an adult. or was it last year when i turned 18? hm. since then i've tried things that an 18-year old person would do: try lots of new stuff. (don't worry, they're not too extreme, and definitely not illegal) there are more stuff to try this year such as working (sana...), or dancing or not.
and while all people of the earth welcomed the new year with their age-old traditions: 12, 13, 14 or 15 round fruits, money in the pocket at 12 mn, all lights in the house lighted, jumping until their pants fall off, champagne toasts, kissing, firecrackers (or i would like to call: useless and expensive), ritual dances, lowering of a ball (in times square, not um...), etc., i tried something new. do away with all the chinese, western or other rituals and just welcome the new year with hope. nah. of course i didn't do that. i sulked due to the absence of any good tasting alcohol-based beverage within reach. sure there was whisky and brandy, but i need my liver whole for the new year. (i tasted both: pure, and i was practically drinking out of a beaker, tastes like lab alcohol, ugh.) so, to celebrate my new year, for the first time ever, at 12 mn, i went outdoors. for as long as i can remember, i spend 12 mn +/- 2 hours indoors. i hate firecrackers. the surprising loud sound it makes. and the polluting smoke that follows. anyway, thanks to my relatives who decided not to have firecrackers this year, i can go outside. and i stood there and watched the heavens. although there were no angels singing "hosanna, it's new year already in this time zone!", there were a lot of beautiful, colorful and amazing fireworks. i hate firecrackers but love fireworks because of 3 reasons:
1. fireworks don't make a lot of sound.
2. fireworks are beautiful, colorful and amazing.
3. fireworks require to be lighted up far, far away to be appreciated.
so, i spent 20 minutes outside the house, staring at the sky, with my family. that was a first. i was usually left inside. alone. a sad childhood, maybe. but i had all the food in front of me, by myself. but that's another post.
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yearender, yearstarter: i have had a lot of great experinces last year. i knew what it was to be hated, to be loved, to be hated and loved, to be loved implicitly, to be hated implicitly, to love, to hate, to love and hate, to love implicitly and to hate implicitly, to be responsible, to feel responsible, to feel responsible and hate it, to feel responsible and love it, to fail, to hate failing, to love failing, to fail to hate, to fail to love, to be contented, and most of all to sleep for a day. (because i have only slept for 12 hours max before 2006, now i have reached 18 hours.)
but really, i have learned so much and i am willing to learn more. let's just hope i live more.
i've written up a few resoultions for 2007. of course almost everyone wouldn't have resolutions, as it is already overrated, and unnecessary. so, hm, i just stated them as goals, not as resolutions. mainly because resolutions should happen in a snap, an hour of to 5 days. but mine won't. they are goals, and they require hard work. (will post them later)
this year would be big for me, because i'm turning 19, and officially an adult. or was it last year when i turned 18? hm. since then i've tried things that an 18-year old person would do: try lots of new stuff. (don't worry, they're not too extreme, and definitely not illegal) there are more stuff to try this year such as working (sana...), or dancing or not.
and while all people of the earth welcomed the new year with their age-old traditions: 12, 13, 14 or 15 round fruits, money in the pocket at 12 mn, all lights in the house lighted, jumping until their pants fall off, champagne toasts, kissing, firecrackers (or i would like to call: useless and expensive), ritual dances, lowering of a ball (in times square, not um...), etc., i tried something new. do away with all the chinese, western or other rituals and just welcome the new year with hope. nah. of course i didn't do that. i sulked due to the absence of any good tasting alcohol-based beverage within reach. sure there was whisky and brandy, but i need my liver whole for the new year. (i tasted both: pure, and i was practically drinking out of a beaker, tastes like lab alcohol, ugh.) so, to celebrate my new year, for the first time ever, at 12 mn, i went outdoors. for as long as i can remember, i spend 12 mn +/- 2 hours indoors. i hate firecrackers. the surprising loud sound it makes. and the polluting smoke that follows. anyway, thanks to my relatives who decided not to have firecrackers this year, i can go outside. and i stood there and watched the heavens. although there were no angels singing "hosanna, it's new year already in this time zone!", there were a lot of beautiful, colorful and amazing fireworks. i hate firecrackers but love fireworks because of 3 reasons:
1. fireworks don't make a lot of sound.
2. fireworks are beautiful, colorful and amazing.
3. fireworks require to be lighted up far, far away to be appreciated.
so, i spent 20 minutes outside the house, staring at the sky, with my family. that was a first. i was usually left inside. alone. a sad childhood, maybe. but i had all the food in front of me, by myself. but that's another post.
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yearender, yearstarter: i have had a lot of great experinces last year. i knew what it was to be hated, to be loved, to be hated and loved, to be loved implicitly, to be hated implicitly, to love, to hate, to love and hate, to love implicitly and to hate implicitly, to be responsible, to feel responsible, to feel responsible and hate it, to feel responsible and love it, to fail, to hate failing, to love failing, to fail to hate, to fail to love, to be contented, and most of all to sleep for a day. (because i have only slept for 12 hours max before 2006, now i have reached 18 hours.)
but really, i have learned so much and i am willing to learn more. let's just hope i live more.
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