in a box

i would like to live in a box.

a box that is full of wonderful things. of course, there would be a lot of food. i love different tastes. in this box, there is a different taste every single time. in this box there would only be the things i wanted to see. there will be no envy, no hate, no secrets whatsoever. there is no need for secrets, because there is no risk. there will be trees and flowers and no insects. life would not be always sunny, or colorful, or happy, but there would always be hope and passion. there would be nice music, not the ones that i hurt my ears, or are just plain dumb. this will be a large box that will contain all my favorite things. i could do anything i want in this box. there are endless cable channels in this box. i can also watch all movies. i can study if i wanted to. i can sleep and study if i wanted to. i am free in this box. there will be no censors, no restrictions. there is order in this box, and no double standards. this box is cool, and nice and perfect for me.

but it is all in my head. or really, outside, in the world. i just need to look at it.

but no. all fantasies remain fantasies. i just need to get used to eating a lot of ice cream. that's the closest thing to heaven on earth. and friends too.
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there are some things that i will have to stop doing. procrastination, somehow, i've minimized in six months. there are lots more. i promise, i'm working on them. :D
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happy birthday to my prettiest, most patient and most caring little sister: Dot (or Dotdot, as my lolo would fondly call her *tear*). happy 12th birthday. it's so nice seeing these baby sisters morph from cartoon-watching, doll-playing kids to responsible teens. :D

so why did i skip the 'responsible teen' part? just went from thumbsucking to ruling the world...
bah!