yehey. but not fully.

yehey!
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eds placed nice third in the little ms kem stuff. mind you, he was good. but then there was me. yehey educ! yehey eds!
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the SepKEMber concluded the string of stuff (chorvalu) that was the KEM cup. i would like to thank everybody who participated for educ.
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burdened with so much work now. the che 32 stuff. although carla seemed to have finished a good amount of it. but she told me, "do not let anyone else copy.". of course not. i respect you (and even honor you). they have their own brains, they'll survive. thanks carla. [most promising student for all infinity]
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thought: flirts go with flirts (?) do they both enjoy each other's flirtatiousness?
bad idea, perhaps.
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not so little

maybe not so little this time.
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i have been reminded (by what menki said) that i should not pour too much angst into the blog. but no... it is a good outlet.
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anyway, i have not been speaking so much at home (the nearer one) because i don't like. i might say something not so nice, because of my emotional stresses and sh*t like that.
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why are the apps pleading me to do what i won't do? (so that they'd be saved from it)
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about the love issues, well, maybe someone should say/do something. if he'd like to sort things out.
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so disappointed of myself for not tambay-ing at SME at all. what can they be thinking about this? where is the 40% i promised.
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for the first time i was not so happy to receive the nice award given to me (for being a good person at PRC and Educ). I do not deserve it more than others. pat should be acknowledged in WAM though. (there, i said it! it's my blog anyway.)
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more work ahead. stress. stress.
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getting over double buddy quitting. finally.
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and be thankful i dont use cuss words on people who deserve them. yet. although i was given too many cuss words i did not deserve. [for you: well you definitely deserve it. but no cuss words thrown here]
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when you wish upon a bag...
you'll get ugly and be a hag,
when you wish upon a bag,
your boobs will sag...
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i need sugary stuff.

pretentious. love.

i am a pretentious fool.

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i often quarrel with the least pretentious person in the world--my brother. well, maybe too much sincerity. he doent really mind anything. not an ounce of pretentiousness. he wore tights (yes the spandex types) to school one crazy, pants-less day. and that was because he can't wear shorts to chem lab. he talks, and doesn't pretend to be quiet, when it is needed. i always lecture (to his great dislike) him about behaving well in public, about not eating like a dog, not from the plate, but from the spoon (he bites fromn the spoon, and not takes food in using the spoon). about covering his mouth when he is coughing. well, not most about being pretentious, but maybe trying to appear not yourself at others.

so he hates it. he hates my pretentiousness. he always reasons that he doesnt have time for these things. i just thought thinking about pretending takes up time too! and perhaps, it has taken much of my time. but i also thought that being pretentious is good. maybe, only socially. but how bad can it be?

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last saturday, we had our SME fr. you know how frs work: bringing out your true self. but again, i must have thought about being pretentious: "i have done everything to deserve this org..." sh*t and all.

i was so happy about what happened not because the fr did not abuse, mutilate or dismember me 9and other applicants) but because i was myself. i really enjoyed it. and thanks.

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happy birthday to aymin, maeya vivo (few days ago), brando and basty (tomorrow).
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love now. i understand a bit of it now. maybe. perhaps. i need the my whole lifetime to understand a great deal of it. im not in a hurry. and NO, there is no love for me at the moment. im just babbling.
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acad break for 2 days: monday, tuesday. back to normal tomorrow. mp2 on friday, computer problem due next friday. es 13 next wednesday. geog 1 next next monday. mx on friday. reactor article on friday.
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im not doing little ms kem.
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i must get over horror film paranoia. stop imagining hand emerging from toilet, or ghost hanging upside down from celing or sudden "do you want to meet a ghost?" from the internet. no red tape on doors either.
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will be missing a lot of things this sem break. so sorry, if im teasing you all the time. (tumatakbo ang oras...)
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buddies, why why?

deep, difficult

i learned many things.

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watched a couple of horror films this week (japanese ones) at the film center with zsa, shie, ye and po (and reya and mona). good scream..

much more painful es 1 exam finals. please just let me pass.

sme fr. the best. one of the few things i (think) i wont regret doing. i just hope i dont disappoint them. again.

educom is a big loser in the KEM cup (although it is not over yet). well, mainly due to lack of people playing. but we were really good.

acad cup na lang...

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happy birthday to ate erma, celeste, moley (this week).
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learning is never easy. but actually it is people who make it difficult. if we were so much willing to learn, the it won't be as hard. we just need our eyes opened. there is enough light for us to see.
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no conditional friends sh*t here, pat.

excuses

***i noticed that i am a really specific (i.e. revealing) poster***

i missed all friday classes because of stupid diarrhea (iwww...). i just went to school to pass my mp and the paper we're going to use in the es 13 exam.

that is my ultimate excuse.

i failed to do the logscript article (new!) assigned to us. it was supposed to be passed last wednesday, but i planned on submitting it last thursday or friday because of the events which were scheduled to happen before the assignment, but then i did not have the heart to turn down the eic's request. apparently, very few of us are working, or perhaps, i just don't see them. (and they don't see me)

i will skip ham2 tomorrow despite being the educom 'head' for KEM cup (with tintin falagne).

***why?!?! why i am a fool? why don't i break hearts, but will (more painfully) eventually do? i just nod to everything, even if i can't do it. fool... the pain! the pain!

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luckily, papa came and brought me to the infirmary so that i can be given proper medication. i would not go there again alone, scared of the eyebrow-raising triage nurse, who is the exact opposite of the nice, hospitable stereotype nurse. [maybe a nonconformist or whatever... wait, I DON'T CARE!!]. well, the doctor gave me some pills to take thrice a day (dont know what for), and required me to have a fecalysis. the person at the labopratory said that if i wont poop then, ill have to come back tomorrow (which was today), and gave me a 2 cm diameter-mouthed bottle (i wondered how can i get IT in the bottle). but i havent taken the fecalysis. yet.

luckily, im felt much better this morning (perhaps after sleeping the whole night, not even studying a single skew line or beam deflection). and took the exam.

let me use my ultimate excuse not to tell you how the exams went (9-12 es1, 12-2 es13).

and also how the field trip went. (but... that's another entry. perhaps. my bag smelled like aircon bus though. iwww...)

and also how the interview went.

more or less, i am not giving out the goodies this week. im hungry. and diarrhea-scarred persons should not miss a meal. :P

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happy birthday to dale (sept _), adrian abiog (sept 10) and john sanchez (sept 9).

happy

tree.
friends.

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made me smile(and squirm). a bit.

issues

issues? what issues?

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anyway, greatly tired from the events of friday. i slept quite a lot this weekend. hope the interview would be a breeze... (asa ka pa!)

the ChE 32 exam was a big misfortune. miracle if i pass that. my calculator was paralyzed in the last half of the exam.

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i hope my 'education' won't ruin my 'academics'.

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happy birthday to edlaine (sept 1) and fra (sept 3).

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not the least inspired by anything. just want everything to end. i told pat that sme will be the last 'application' i will ever go through. it's so tiring, physically and emotionally. it even gets into my dreams. too much 'terror'... i hope things will be alright.

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kem cup! i am not entirely unhappy about me being in educom, i just hoped i was in prc. anyway, i think i can't attend ham2, again.
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acad cup. i am really sliding down the academic ladder (or perhaps falling off). i havent contributed to the acad cup since that 100% geog exam. and that was jut the third time, i guess.
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next time. help me recover.