thrills and spills

the part two of the planning sem episode.

so to make this short. steve acte like a big jerk one of those nights. he scared martin out of sleeping beside the old chest (it's supposed to contain bodies or similar stuff). i did not want to sleep beside it either, so i lay face to angge's foot. but it was a nice night. i slept almost immediately after we setlle down, and mike was bothered by the alleged child ghost who wanted to play, allegedly.

halfway through the planning sem, the water was cut-off innocently by janine's father so we had to get water from the only faucet with running water (funny). that night, almost everyone pooed, while mike brought the water. (thanks...)

favorite part: EK!!! it was a fun experience (although my whole body swells after every ride because the blood is being pumped too fiercely). i finally gathered courage to try anchors away, flying fiesta (which i loved) log jam (which i did not like very much because it was a "falling" ride) and rialto(which lovely did not want to try the first time, turns out it's utterly boring). i got soaked at the rio grande rapids, which i enjoyed (but yes, it is a lame ride for an eighteen year-old). by the way, we met a lot of familiar faces. i specifically enjoye bumping "maam dalida" in dodgem. and "harvy" got his/her "marge" wet. haha. ok. stop.

the planning sem taught me a lot of things:

• budget is important to succeed
• a choice will greatly affect succeeding choices
• the left-overs make very good fried rice
• i must go into the iced tea industry
• sometimes our eyes make us blind, the heart sees better
• super bounce out may be a highly exciting game, but not for me

and the most important lesson. this goes for my ec mates. i hope you learned this. but you have learned this the hard way. vany's name is vannessa. it's V-A-double N-E-double S-A. i have the last laugh.

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happy birthday to hannah cabrillas (apr 22), angge dela cruz (apr 23), meanne asis (apr 24). happy 58th anniversary to lolo and lola. congratulations to all the graduates, especially kuya joven who graduated cum laude.

emptying my mind first

kasi hindi pa ako makatulog.

sige. psychoanalysis again? mukhang tagalog ang entry na ito.

ok. mahirap bumasa ng tao. mahirap na. baka mali pala tingin mo tapos nanghusga ka kaagad. dapat talaga maging maingat tayo sa mga ganitong bagay. kasi life-changing ito. pero hindi naman talaga ito ang dapat na nandito, kasi malalim na ito. mababaw lang dapat, para makatulog na ako.

may mga taong bato. mukhang bato. pusong bato. sarado isip. sarado kamao. may mga taong hard on the outside but soft on the inside. parang tootsie roll na lollipop. tigasin ang image pero alam mo yon, parang kalamay ng puo. masyadong senti. masyadong sensitive. artistic. non-rigid. at, kahit pa anong gender, may mga tao talagang ganito.

may mga crowd pleaser. tanggap lang nang tanggap. tapos pag napuno... pwedeng, umapaw, sumabog. meron namang kebs lang sa mga ibang tao. ano ka, only citizen of this world? hala...

ewan ko ba, pero ngayong gabi ay naiinis ako. ngayon lang. pero umaga na pala no. kanina naman ok naman ako. ngayon ngayon lang ako naiinis. ewan ko ba. nalilito pa rin ako. sino ba ako? ano ba kaya ko gawin? ano ba ang mga bagay na dapat kong alisin sa sarili ko? ano ba ang mga bagay, o gawain na di ko dapat nilalapitan, o ginagaya? kaya ko pa b ang sarili ko? has my consciousness grown larger than myself?

sabi ko nga sa sarili ko, resulta ng isang introspection, hindi ako pang-poetry talaga. gumagwa lang ako ng tula for humor. yung tipong petty lang na humor. katatawanan. ka-cheapan. para sa akin hindi naman yun poetry, although it contains all the elements. hindi ko nararamdaman so, hindi. mas prosaic ako. ganito. blog entry. alam ko na kung bakit. nung comm3 class namin nung tuesday, nagimpromptu kami. prose lang yon, malamang-lamang. ok naman english ko. pero magulo isip ko. i suck at organization. magulo utak ko. mga ideas man, o gawain (kahit ngayon bilang vp, at inhinyero staff) ay hindi ko maipila ng maayos. i am not procrastinating siguro. i just cannot sort my priorities right. kaya siguro nagkakanda-leche-leche buhay ko... kunwari nung last sem. na-overwhelm din kasi ako, so, hindi ako nakapag-organize. burara ako. o baka naman nasa content ang focus ko, hindi sa form.

i still have no capacity to enter a (bf/gf) commitment kasi kahit sarili ko nga, di ko na maalagaan, ibang tao pa kaya. tsaka naman. bata pa naman ako. read: i can still enjoy being single (career po muna). ang kapal din kasi ng mukha ko. ang dami ko namang gustong gawin. pero, kaya ko ba? 4 na ang planner ko, kasi worried ako na hindi ko maorganize ang lahat ng kailangan ko gawin, pero nakakatulong ba yun?

sana. sana. hay.

one week vacation

make that two days vacation.

which are the 2 fr days. the outing was fun. the outingcom were great, although we get to eat last because, huli daw ang ec. (so we just took [wacky] pictures, without maja and angge, apparently, on "administrative duty") the pool was nice, and i spent about 4 hours (2 hours each day, or maybe more) in it, watching steve do some "synchronized swimming". the view was spectacular. with all the smog in the afternoon, the lights at night... and well, i had sleep!!!

after that we went to laguna (im partially asleep now, o pardon the weak narration), on an fx, from antipolo (which costed us...). we settled in, and did not use the remaining 4 rooms of the house, and instead squeezed into a single room. we had a "bonding moment", and i almost did not sleep because i watched hostel (the movie), and the scenes kept coming back to me...(it was horrific!)

part two. later. im sleepy. look at the time. :D

happy birthday to anabel revilla (apr 16) and jericho antonio (apr 18).

nice week :)

hmmm... later.