not entirely happy

i am the next prc vp. but i am not very happy, although i really want the job.

for a few things. but i will not mention it here. BUT, it is not too controversial or anything. it's a personal matter.

but then, yahoo! at least the campaigning was not wasted...the poor paper things. :D

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

the miting de avance is really worrying me.

good luck to me.

the next two weeks

the next two weeks will be huge for me, and i need all the help i can get.

first: the election week. 1.)the miting the avance will be scary enough to make me puke on it 2.)there will be a lot of $$$ spending, although i have little. im really at this point where i really wanna do something, but am not sure if i can do it perfectly. for one thing, i have screwed up my campaign slogan, "do the right thing". it doesn't sound right. it sounds yucky. but then. also, i like funny stuff so it's very difficult to stay very serious at times. and, i often cannot feel/know if the situation calls for "seriousness". i'd rather have it funny. but if i do, that would mean that i cannot work seriously, and thus i am not fit to lead. im confusing myself, maybe. (and a socio exam on thursday.)

following that is dropping week. not that im dropping my subjects or anything, but exams are on this week. i have four exams: che 131 on monday. che 132 on tuesday. eee 1 on wednesday, and es 12 on saturday. gosh! could i survive this? of course. but it wont be easy.

it really wont because instead of studying i will spend time at the fair next week. well fun = happiness. study =boredom. so it's not so big a debate for me. and also, on saturday (feb 18), we will have the talentin, which is my first. so, naturally i am very excited. partly, because the skittles will have another performance, and partly, i dunno, it's new? whatever. on the same day, in the morning, i will join math club's search for the math wizard. im really not a math wizard and all, but it's worth a try. im not expecting to win or anything. im not even studying for it. but instead, i should study for my other tests. :D

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im thinking of changing the look of my blog again. i dunno. lets hope i find time for it.

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last week, a very unfortunate incident (no not the stampede) happened at home (UP home). lucky suggested that we should not leave the keys by the gate because it is dangerous. some of the girls agreed and put the keys by the mirror inside the house. at about 2 am, tristan came, and could not enter. instead of waking us up (and the whole neighborhood), he went to philcoa for the night. he came back at 5 or 6 am (thankfully aldrin was awake), and slept some more. he woke up at about 8 am, wrote an angry letter, expressed some anger, took a bath and went on with his wednesday life. well, if it was me, i'd be angry too.

point from this "story". it is just simmering beyond the surface, waiting to be explicitly said. it is to consult everyone who is to be affected before doing something. no group of people should decide alone, because they for one, have no right, because there is an equal right to the decision-making. (well for that house)

but no one was completely right, or innocent at that point. there is more than what meets the eye, or what is heard.

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so help us, God.
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happy birthday to ME! (feb 7,. aldrin (feb 11) and joy (feb 14). :D

stop

i need to stop fooling myself. i will not pass without studying. and i should stop procrastinating.

although i miraculously passed the first 131 exam (67%), (and studying more would have given me at most 8 percent more, because mina studied her ass off [if that was possible with that--] and well did not ace the test, but was the highest in class), i will monumentally fail my es 12 exam (but hey, who would pass it? a lot for this easy exam, i think).

although i got 100.5% (105% is perfection score) in eee1, i will probably get 70% in the second exam just because i procrastinated and crammed the last minute. if not for the wye-delta hand movements, i won't be able to memorize the transformations. but then i forgot that time-domain sinusoids needed to be in cosine before they could be transformed to phasors. darn.

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the student teacher dialogue is approaching, with 17 days to go. vinz is sharing the haggard spirit with everybody, and if she knew i moved my deadlines one week she'd go nuts (see, procrastinating).

okay. i have thought about it and i have decided to run. it will be a scary week for me (the fair week, which will also contain the miting de avance day, and election day), not for the fear of losing, but for the questions they will throw at me, which i stopped myself to give examples of. but i really looove prc, so i should be enjoying this.

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i am near the turning point in my life. i would finally be integrated into the adult world. (although i was informally integrated as soon as my bathcmates turned 18, because i have to follow suit). but in a individual level...i can vote! and drink! and watch R films! and well... yun lang. but i have to use the new freedom wisely. no drinking yet, because i need, and want my parents' approval, and why on earth would i go and drown myself in alcohol, which will be converted into sugars that will make me, fat. and fail school in the process. no voting until 2007, and im glad they called the no-el off. and R films are to be watched when needed, eg required in school (not required by interest), but perhaps... i think i'm mature enough.

and so i will stop hiding behind the minor wall (during maskipaps, where in people block the view shouting "minor! hindi pa pwede sa iyo yan!") and take on new responsibility. clean the streets perhaps. or world peace. or at least stop procrastinating, move some ass and study.
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belated happy birthday lovely carpo (jan 27).

advance happy birthday to mils (feb 6), rubie parani (feb 6), esther bolinguit (feb 7), tristan lanting (feb 10).