it is so not right

read this first before proceeding. (a news article)

no, mr gonzales. you cannot point to up as the breeding ground for destabilizers.

and which is fouler, men and women running around naked (which is only once a year) in commemoration of the UP spirit, or a top official like yourself saying things that does not help the sinking ship of the administration, rather bores more holes on it?

you also said, “They should consider the fact that the state is the one paying for their schooling. Why fight the state? Why try to bring it down? I think some degree of gratitude should be there also." well, a little thinking won't hurt. is the state really paying for our schooling sufficiently? why are there a lot of students who are working while studying? why are there protests to raise up's budget every single year? up students really cannot thank the government for something that they don't have.

which leads me to the college of engineering.

why is it that the college seems very anti-student nowadays? or maybe i am just mad because we were displaced from our tambayan (sme), which is located at the door of the biochemistry lab of the ChE department. when the laboratory master decided to open that door, we had no more tambayan. when we approached the asst. college secretary (which tends to the student affairs of the college), he said he could not give us a tambayan. not even the odd spaces in the building which a) have no use yet, b) are just perfect for orgs like us.

as eng'g students are apathetic, non-complaining persons, our tamabayan request just went out the window. anyway, they do not expect us to pursue that request. and also, everyone knows that in eng'g, the word of the administration is final, carved-on-stone law. no objections. no complaints. unless you want to have a warning.

which i would risk if things get worse (eg. we get kicked out because of our mere presence).

and finally, mr. gonzales, ust did not do anything wrong to you. maybe up did, but hey, ust won the cheering championship for as long as i was in up.

i warned you

steve. my id. please.

CATHARSIS 2006: Silver Rain

PLUS, freebies for the audience!!!

steam

i had two tests yesterday. one in geol 11, which was, as expected, hard and full of essay questions. che 197 was less painful, but harder than the first exam.

but what a relief. i said last night that once the geol 11 exam was over, my life would be over, but the exam would be over too. only 134 to study for this week.

i had to replace the lock i sawed last saturday. as you can remember from my previous posts, steve had (and still has) my id, with the key to our house. so i had to cut the lock off from the chains to open the gate. it was a waste of 79 pesos plus duplicaion fees i have to shoulder.

finished the certificates last saturday. at last, now the SP left.

i hope it will still be a happy semester for me. i am so glad i had released some of the steam i was holding for oh-so-long. and i am definitely on a roll and i know better than to trap more steam. but maybe. steam is not so bad, but no, it is. these troubles are killing me.

another che concept, high pressure can be costly. in more ways than i can say "go!".

exactly what was preventing me from releasing the steam is that the external pressure is too high. it favors the introduction of more steam to my system. but the boundaries of the system are weak, and will hold just as much steam. then now, the external pressure easens up and lets some steam go out. i am hoping for equilibrium. but as they say, there is no perfect equilibrium. there is still some small forward or backward reaction, but they can be assumed negligible.

but still i do not feel quite contented with whatever happened in our last talk. we still need if not a few talks, time. and some people need to release some steam. and others just have to open their minds.

it sucks but it feels a bit alright. a bit.

congratulations to kem band members

for winning 3rd place (out of 10?) in acoustic jammeng'g. you deserved it. especially dale. :D and james, congrats also.

good things come to those who rock. you did.

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congratulations to all apps (many many) who finished their talent show last thursday. you will see later that it is all worth it. every single drop of bodily fluid (which are legal, of course).

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just finished one of my busiest weeks so far, but actually not yet because there are still the certificates waiting for me.
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i just wanted to say that publicity is so hard because you have to appeal to a large group of people. so, it requires a lot of work: much in conceptualization and searching for useful material, then rendering the ideas, finishing touches, printing, posting, or similar work.

anyway, what i'm trying to say is what i am (and my diligent staff, aka committee)doing is really
hard. remember our che concepts? multistage process to achieve good yields? right? publicity is no different. we go through several stages of conceptualization stuff. also, as much as we want to start early, we often can't. this is because a) we have other more urgent work to do ie. urgent pub work, acads, etc. b) the info we need is late eg. venue, time, logos.

also, please understand that we are only humans. and thus, we are as capable as making mistakes as you are. it is okay to have such criticisms but please consider our feelings too. we are as human as you are too. please do not tell us things as if they are the most horrendous things in this planet. (there are a lot out there i can tell you)

lastly, we all have only 24 hours. i know that we differ in our time management activities, but we need our time. we go to class for 10 hours max and eat, sleep, take a bath, rest, etc. so do the math and know how much of it can actually go to making stuff. very little. so we need more than a few days to do our work. and that is considering that we stretch our awake hours for oh so long just for these pub work. it's not even academic. we need our academic time also. we need those high grades as much as you do.

i know that it is sad that it has to come to this. someone has to do something anyway. and i am fully aware that some person is trying to extract as much info from this for malicious reasons. i don't f*ck*g care. go shave your head and boil your self to sleep. or better yet, mind your own business.

please do not confront me jus to condemn me for this. because i will be ready for you. and it will not be pretty.
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but then, all that aside. it was a fulfilling week. if only martin would bring his geankoplis book for me. *sigh* and my foust book! you cold-blooded piece of-, return it!! and steve, my ID.

there is a lot to do

obviously, i am rushing this post because of the pile of work i had to do. but no worries.

i went against my overnight schedule and had one yesterday to finish the inter-u sp and poster and streamer. but well, tough luck. there were people working on their che 122 and i haven't had the chance to use one of the computers until 7 am. so i skipped geol 11 (to my horror. maynard did not make it to class also because he was stranded somewhere.) and did everything by 11:30 am.

at 12:30 pm, that was after i have eaten, thankfully, ceres asked me to come with her to SC. since i was needing someone to print the inter- u posters but couldn't find anyone available, i went with her and printed the posters myself. well, i was proud of what fritz (thanks, fritz) did and my resizing and retouching skills. but as usual, the horror comes when people look at it. they did not comment on the design because it seemed complicated (*wink wink*) and well, nice. but they noticed some 'errors' in the poster. i just said that i had no time to check the poster thoroughly, and told everyone my sob story (that i waited till 7 am, and cannot blame anyboy for that, anybody but their teacher, but no). celeste did not buy it. so i had to repeat the poster. but just that part.

but then she wanted all 'pascual laboratories' logos changed. so more work.

but it is okay. at least we have a lot from our sponsors. we can only do so much to thank them.

been to another very productive ec meeting at sbarro and the garden area at sm north. i just hope people would just focus less on their selves.

to a certain friend: stop using freaking quotes to tell me off. you know it is not that easy. love can banish hate. but love is tiring when it thwarts hate. so i'm taking it slow. i just want to be tired physically. not emotionally.
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happy birthday (yesterday, aug 15) to a special friend who loves to sing at the top of his lungs, or with much feeling or a combination, loves math, likes to fool people with acting skills and hates nonesense:
Lucky Erap Villanueva Galvez

smashed

it was a lazy morning. we woke up late, contrary to belief that we rushed the certificates. i finished all the text and logos by 1:30 am and gary designed it by 7 am. i copied and pasted 2 together at 9 am. we were supposed to arrive there on time but we decided to get some more sleep.

and so, everything seemed perfect until the printing screwed up and the laptop died and we had to plug it but we can't because there was only one adaptor. wow. series of potentially upsetting events. we ended back here at yia to fix some names and 'partcipants'. i carried the 3 kg printer for 1 km! then, there was no installer. thank hp ofr their site which allows download of such. but we will see.

one of our ec pics:
i do not consider it a flaw. oh yes, i agree, it's a talent.
element of the day: Fe
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if it weren't for the jellybeans, today would probably be too sleepy.

a few things

i can't please everybody.

well, i can't please everybody if i can't please myself first. i think i finally got one off from my shoulders. but too late to learn that now. but maybe not too late.

thanks to a certain person who i talked to recently. he tried to be the best he can be, but was rejected. he was so hurt by that but he knows better than to sulk.

from now on, complete shut-off from people who have malice in trying to preach me. i cannot change for people. i can be better on my own terms. and, thanks for the last time, i now love my work.

don't get me wrong if i seem too stubborn and dense and immature (yuck, i hate that word), but i deserve my happiness too. i don't want to absorb all of you. i do what is due to me. and i do how i should do it, not how you say i should do it.

is happiness a choice? no. but you can go around it and manage.
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enough drama. nothing so much exciting for me this week aside from 197's tips on how to outsmart your gas station service people by choosing the right kind of oil, and the impending egg drop challenge for es 10.

am looking forward to our next skittles presentation. but will not promise not to commit major booboo.

one moment of angst: if you are keeping that as motivation, then might as well not include you. it's ours anyway, or would you like to have a piece of our cake again?

pictorial week was a blast. the tambayan pic was ok, and the org pic better. although shayne must have blocked me with her head. had another shot in the sme pic. had fun with lou getting write-ups and watching people have their pictures taken.

another moment: there is no such thing as line of succession in work load. you do your work, not pass it. okay?

so, had fun also in doing the video thing for sir munoz. he's a KEMer and he's the best ChE lab teacher there is, with all those brains. and even better dancer or singer i hope.

more fun at the acquaintance party this noon for the esc auxillary committees. we had a game where we had to spell "starbucks coffee" using the first letters of certain objects we have with us. our group won. so much for using 'fragrance' for 'perfume'. classy. if only cathy did not spill cola on her clothes the party would have been perfect.

yay! met my committee apps already and i very much wanted to keep the rocks rolling. come on prc apps (and gert and josie and janine) let's rock! that's it.

well what could i say for this week? reunited. and it feels so good.

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saw this funny thing. well not really funny but nice. nice. and funny. but i knew this for some time. check this out if you know ceres.
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happy birthday to my sister who has a strong character and is multi-talented aside from rocking in math. you know i love you so. even if it doesn't show. (well it's a cruel world, brothers and sisters fight too much) you will still be my and kuya's baby sister. now at 14, a young lady.
Hanna Claire Ramirez

slowly but shirley

aaaah. i just have to put that. it was taken from our ec meeting at ihaw-one yesterday. the number (metal ones here) which was given to us contained cliches such as slowly but surely and good things come to those who wait. it was a special meeting because of a reason i do not wish to put here because YOU are reading this. [and you might say, that i am stupid because i write on this blog and then i do not put whatever i want to say here, but you are just looking for "useful" information.]

slowly...
i am seeing the fruits of my sacrifices. i am learning to do the things that would make me happy. i am learning how not to hate or whine all the time. i am ignoring most of the hate i receive. i am living this life. [but then my majors would resume next week so, much slower then]

surely...
i am taking advantage of time. it takes time to make a natural pearl. and a natural diamond. and a lot of nice things. in the same way, it takes a lot of time for a person to learn different things. it may be slow, but it is sure.

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happy birthday to a dear friend who does not want to celebrate her birthday today in much jubilation for unknown reasons. the natural comedian of the 'pool haus' people:
Catherine Quilon Guamos
you are now a lady. good luck with that.

rocks to push

it was a very desirable weekend. UP KEM, which celebrates its 52nd anniversary this august held its yearly housebilding activity at Novaliches last saturday. i had fun passing sacks of mud to other KEMers and applicants (we were about 50 who went) and cutting and bending steel rods. well, it rained a little and our work was limited to what was indoors but it was fun and it made me happy. (huh?)

in the afternoon, together with gary and celeste, we went to espana to have our "gradpics" taken in the colorpoint studio. (its "gradpic" because im not yet graduating this year, im still in 4th year, one more...) i was terrified at first because im not a pictorial-loving type of person, as supposed to mina who had loads of fun (lets see if we can upload one of her 'daring' pics here). so, i went to make-up and the make-up artist spent just 2 minutes max brushing my face with powder or something like that. then, i proceeded to the pictorial studio where we had our formal pictures. that was fun but i can't smile right so i kept teling myself to just "think happy thoughts". i wasnt very sad that day, but i am so terrified of having my picture taken in this atmosphere.

that was the easy part. the next picture to be taken was our glamour shot (aka billboard/magazine shot). i did not have a 'glamour look' so i needed help. help came i the form o joel, who was the artistic/wardrobe director of sorts for almost the whole staff. after a painful minute of posing, it was over. there's always the shredder when the prints come. okay. now, it was time for the creative shot. i won't tell here what my creative shot was. i'll just upload the pic when it reaches me. but im not promising anything.

sunday- just slept till 1pm. same sunday routine later and started chapter 12 of janine's fanfics.

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im upset today. dont ask. (of course, i would probably tell you later)

and censor my ass.

a few quotes

"...amanos..."
-Dorina Pineda in Bituing Walang Ningning

"Is happiness a choice?"
-a friend

"...sabi ko."
-a friend

happy birthday to the funniest, best singer and synchronized swimmer in the EC:
Steve Anthony Emil Hernandez (aug 3)

for all of you

the law of inertia: Corpus omne perseverare in statu suo quiescendi vel movendi uniformiter in directum, nisi quatenus a viribus impressis cogitur statum illum mutare. newton's first law states that an object at rest will remain at rest and an object in uniform motion will continue to move in that velocity unless acted upon by an external force.

le chatelier's principle: If a chemical system at equilibrium experiences a change in concentration, temperature, or total pressure, the equilibrium will shift in order to minimize that change.

there is no reason for retaliation if there really isn't. think my dears, think. might as well leave me alone.