kem cup joys
i love my prc apps! they are such dear people who, day in and day out, never fail their vp. and they got prc a bazillion points, just for appearing, sometimes winning.
i realized that there is a lot of things i have to be happy about. throughout the week, i had been the whiny, irritated person who watched out for the technicalities before, during and after the games. i really wanted to win. not only for myself, so that i can brag it to my ec mates, but really all of it for prc. they are such talented people, i know that, and people see that. but we are not winning.
people are happy when they compete against prc for two reasons. one, we will cause the less movement of places, since we are dead last (with 200 points between us and the next committee). two, because of our losing streak, we are the easiest team to beat. the first reason brings joy to me because, i wanted this activity to be a happy one for all of us. if we win, everybody is happy. reason number two is sad. but it has basis. but people should not say that to our face, moreover say it all because we might just beat them. and that has a basis too. right? or maybe he meant reason number one.
don't get me wrong, i am just that penguin protecting his baby penguin eggs in the middle of the winter. and i am sorry if i misinterpreted the ccp thing. i thought that we should already do that. but maybe it's too late now. but there is still next year.
as for me and my committee. we are happy, win or lose. at least, the ones who are playing.
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got sick this weekend, during my emergency coming home last saturday. lolo is now in his most critical level, and the whole family is getting ready. for the whole weekend i just rested so i can go back to school on monday. i sleep every 4 hours for at least 3 hours because i get tired sniffing and coughing and breathing. when i force myself to sleep on sunday night, i couldn't sleep for two reasons. a) i had too much to sleep b) i kept thinking about lolo and how would it feel like. everything happens so fast. two weeks ago i saw him at home, relatively healthy and walking on his own. then the following week, he's in the hospital, because he fell from the bed, but seems to have recovered, and is looking okay. then now, he's in the icu, on life support. he still wakes up but his organs are slowly failing. the family is preparing--. papa had this "did your lolo do anything to you that you haven't forgiven?" conversation with me. it was scary. everything this weekend was like a tornado blowing me with it, and flinging me elsewhere.
then i return to school last monday with a bucketful splash of cold water. everyone told me how prc suffered during ham2. i nearly cried (with those tantrum moves i did as a child). but can not do anything but say sorry. i also failed to make people go to ham2 by texting. well, that weekend, the ham2 or the bowling sepkember was the least of my concerns. i have life-death-health situations in my hands so i wanted people to shut up and stop haunting me for being the ham2 no show.
and now. i cherish my prc family. the people i love. the people who love prc. makes the pain worth it.
i'd like to acknowledge: prc apps, ceres, mina, fra and steve. special mention: martin i appreciate that a lot.
some things cannot be understood on their own. some need to be said early on.
i realized that there is a lot of things i have to be happy about. throughout the week, i had been the whiny, irritated person who watched out for the technicalities before, during and after the games. i really wanted to win. not only for myself, so that i can brag it to my ec mates, but really all of it for prc. they are such talented people, i know that, and people see that. but we are not winning.
people are happy when they compete against prc for two reasons. one, we will cause the less movement of places, since we are dead last (with 200 points between us and the next committee). two, because of our losing streak, we are the easiest team to beat. the first reason brings joy to me because, i wanted this activity to be a happy one for all of us. if we win, everybody is happy. reason number two is sad. but it has basis. but people should not say that to our face, moreover say it all because we might just beat them. and that has a basis too. right? or maybe he meant reason number one.
don't get me wrong, i am just that penguin protecting his baby penguin eggs in the middle of the winter. and i am sorry if i misinterpreted the ccp thing. i thought that we should already do that. but maybe it's too late now. but there is still next year.
as for me and my committee. we are happy, win or lose. at least, the ones who are playing.
----
got sick this weekend, during my emergency coming home last saturday. lolo is now in his most critical level, and the whole family is getting ready. for the whole weekend i just rested so i can go back to school on monday. i sleep every 4 hours for at least 3 hours because i get tired sniffing and coughing and breathing. when i force myself to sleep on sunday night, i couldn't sleep for two reasons. a) i had too much to sleep b) i kept thinking about lolo and how would it feel like. everything happens so fast. two weeks ago i saw him at home, relatively healthy and walking on his own. then the following week, he's in the hospital, because he fell from the bed, but seems to have recovered, and is looking okay. then now, he's in the icu, on life support. he still wakes up but his organs are slowly failing. the family is preparing--. papa had this "did your lolo do anything to you that you haven't forgiven?" conversation with me. it was scary. everything this weekend was like a tornado blowing me with it, and flinging me elsewhere.
then i return to school last monday with a bucketful splash of cold water. everyone told me how prc suffered during ham2. i nearly cried (with those tantrum moves i did as a child). but can not do anything but say sorry. i also failed to make people go to ham2 by texting. well, that weekend, the ham2 or the bowling sepkember was the least of my concerns. i have life-death-health situations in my hands so i wanted people to shut up and stop haunting me for being the ham2 no show.
and now. i cherish my prc family. the people i love. the people who love prc. makes the pain worth it.
i'd like to acknowledge: prc apps, ceres, mina, fra and steve. special mention: martin i appreciate that a lot.
some things cannot be understood on their own. some need to be said early on.
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